Forgiveness

Forgiveness is something that is easy to do....

Let me tell you something... I have been abused physically, mentally, sexually, and spiritually. I have been abandon not once, not twice, but three times in my life. I have taken the cup of poison and swallow it whole letting the hatred sink in, and sooth the pain that was caused by people. But once the cup has been taken, it is hard to put down. You use it to drown out the pain of the past and  it becomes your drug of choice. Your anger burns toward the one that has cause you pain, you lash out, calling them names, belittling them, and soon the poison becomes the death of you. You tried to put it aside, but your body needs it to survive. To the point that the insides has become black as sin and hard to scrap away the sludge, this is when you begin to hate yourself. But there is hope and I found it in the LORD. I slowly with a shaken hand, I handed my poison to him. His words boomed in my heart "FORGIVE" "But God, I have no strength to FORGIVE" then a hand of peace and the power to wipe clean, reaches into my very soul and cleans me. "FORGIVE" The command is said and somewhere inside of me I began to forgive....

I forgive the person who took my innocent away...
I forgive the person who laid his hands on me one night...
I forgive everyone who put me down...
I forgive the person who said I would mean nothing to God...
I forgive the guys who abandon me...
I forgive myself for drinking the cup of poison....


Then his command comes again "ASK FOR FORGIVENESS"

I ask for forgiveness to the person I stop being a cheerleader to...
I ask for forgiveness to the person I used as emotion punching bag...
I ask for forgiveness to the person I did not allow them to see my heart...
I ask for forgiveness to the person I never showed how much that meant to me...
I ask for forgiveness to GOD who kept on asking me to Forgive and I drank my poison instead...


Once my heart was clean from the sludge of hatred, I came to realize that GOD gave me the strength to Forgive!!! And I can truly can say that Forgiveness is easy to do with God's strength....